Sunday, February 19, 2012

It kinda pisses me off...

I mean, the recent death of Whitney Houston. It’s not like I was a fan, or have ever listened to her genre, but I, of course, would have had to have been living in a Himalayan Hut to have never heard her music.

The woman had it all…amazing voice, amazing face, amazing body, excellent connections, all the ingredients one would need to cook up a successful life.

So what went wrong?

You know, I find myself thinking, if only I had had ALL those opportunities, ALL that Good Fortune, ALL that Potential…who knows what I might have accomplished!

Granted, many people “make it” in music without having all of the advantages that Whitney had, but it still seems disappointing that she, who had so much MORE of those ingredients than most people, failed so abysmally, in the final years of her life, at taking care of herself enough to be able to give her gift to the world.

But who knows, maybe we ALL do have opportunities — in our own ways, in our own fields, with our own “God-given” talents…

It’s just that her path was such a public one that one couldn’t help but notice it (you don’t hear about wildly successful doctors the same way you do about wildly successful Pop Stars).

I’m just pissed at her. There I’ve said it. What a waste! Was it a lack of self control? Was it selfish and disrespectful of her towards her talent, to let herself sink into using drugs? Or was it the fault of those who originally introduced her to prescription and non-prescription “substances” which eventually led to her death?

When you have a gift like hers, you have a great responsibility. You are the caretaker for your vessel. It is your JOB to keep that vessel healthy. It is your job to keep that vessel pure. It is your job to maintain your body. It is your job to remain strong, and not be swayed by worldly temptations. Maintaining yourself IS your day job.

Yes, what a “tragic loss” her death was. However, is nobody mentioning that she might have had a hand in causing it?

Look, I have my share of addictions…so I forgive her for not being able to get her addictions under control, however, I also have had long periods of my life when I knowingly chose to “fast” from ingesting any poisons of any kind. It was really hard, at first, but after a while I got used to going without those harmful substances. It can be done. I wonder how hard she tried, how difficult it was for her, and if she knew that she did have the power within her to overcome those demons. Or maybe she didn’t. I don’t know. I’m just pissed. Am I being too harsh? I don’t know..Fame and Success do not buy happiness. Drugs don’t always make it better, or even ease the pain all that much. I think that’s the lesson to learn.

It’s just sad. I feel sorry for her, her family, and her fans.